Who Am I?

It is a universal question that at some point or another we look in the mirror and ask ourselves. I sit and I look around at people and their lives, and know that nothing is perfect in it. I then wonder what can I do to shake things up for them? What can I do to make them find their answer to their question? I have no answer for the question myself. I have been a senior old lady, a single mother, a socially awkward teen, a knight in shining armor, and sadly these are just people I play to get what I want out of people. I consider myself an honest person. I can tell you that I enjoy playing mind games. I find nothing more satisfying than starting a mind game with someone and then winning it. I have only lost one time in the 7 years I have been playing them. This does not mean that everyone I come into contact with will become a pawn in my mental chess game. I target people. People that brag about how happy they really are and crap like that. To me that is a challenge, and one that I am usually willing to accept. Now there are some stipulations that prevent me from doing anything. I will not say what they are. I will admit that the fact I am so comfortable with playing mind games and lying to people is not a good thing, but it is what I do and I do do it very well. This is the ugliest thing about me. I am still the same person I was years ago when someone needed something I will do anything in my power to help them out. Maybe this is why I can do what I do with no conviction because half the time I feel as though it is helping someone. I am not sure. Maybe someday I will find a reason to stop the games and just enjoy life, but I doubt it. This is the first blog I have ever written and is actually not done the way I usually feel about things. I usually approach things with a cynical and smart-alecky attitude. So expect further post to have more comedic themes to them, or atleast comedic tones.

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